Monday, October 20, 2014

We're Pregnant :)

I recently found out exactly September 25, 2014 that I was pregnant. Funny thing is I never really new that I would be since I've been wanting one since May of 2014, but I guess work and stress really got in the way. I took 4 pregnancy test all turned out positive, I told Tigran we were having a baby he was really excited. He keep saying "yes jackpot" and told me he was really excited to becoming a dad. We couldn't tell my mom or his mom since we're not yet married. (to readers out there, it's your personal choice whether you want to get married and have a kid or vice versa like what we did).

I guess, I was never the marrying type I always wanted to go on my own though we've been together for the past 3 years now and I am really happy with him. But I just never saw myself settling down at 25, as I think he also did. That's why when I asked him if we should have a baby I think he took it as sign that he was the one that I would want to settle for the rest of my life but was to afraid to tell him directly. I always have a funny thought playing in my head that I have not traveled enough or accomplished enough to settle down, but then again I said it's not the number of places you've been in your lifetime but the actual feeling of being content in just being in one place, I guess that is the true happiness, since not a lot of people can do that, though a lot of people can travel and move out and just walk away from family. I guess we all choose our path of happiness, as I would now be choosing to travel with my soon to be little family. I do look forward to taking the little one on silly one day road trip or food hunt or wherever, as long as we are together.

It was funny, I had the baby checked and we found out I was already 6 weeks with our baby. I was surprised since I told my doctor we'd been travelling back and forth to Baler for the whole month of August and I was really craving for Decaf Caramel Macchiato, for the whole duration of August till the day I found out I was pregnant, I would drink Grande or Venti Decaf Caramel Macchiato at Starbucks everyday, I was afraid of the effect to our baby. But my doctor assured us that we can put the past behind and try to provide as much nutrients to baby as possible.

Another challenge we had to face aside from telling our parents that they are soon to be grandparents was that I had Myoma Uteri, I had to undergo a month of bed rest inorder to avoid miscarriage. We called Tigran's mom after and told her about the news she was ecstatic I could feel her energy coming from the other line, she was really looking forward to becoming a Lola or Grand Mother since this is her first, for my mom this would be her fifth so I guess she wouldn't be that enthusiastic but she'll still be happy to have another addition to our big family.

My doctor advised me to do at least 90% bed rest, no long distance walking, even riding the car for more than 20km is prohibited. I had to take Duphaston to help prevent miscarriage and also Cefalin to cure my UTI, which my doctor said is quite common for pregnant women.

After 3 weeks, it was the check up that we have both been praying to have a positive result and also dreading to go to but we have to. We were both in the OB GYN ultrasound and I was really nervous, I know that Tigran was really scared too, but we were putting everything in God's hand whatever is the outcome of this, if the baby would not have a heartbeat and we had to terminate then we have to accept it since God always has a plan. But we know God is good, he would not give this blessing if it was not meant for us.

As the OBGYN was checking the small round sac in my belly, she was a bit worried because there was no heartbeat. She kept on checking and checking but there was none, she was already explaining that and typing that there is no cardiac response on the little sac I have inside. I was holding back my tears and Tigran was rubbing my forehead and touching my hair we were really quiet even her assistant was quiet. Then by some miracle we saw a heartbeat, it was fast like a blinking light we could see it on the ultrasound monitor and we all rejoiced. The baby have a strong heartbeat that's what she said and the baby was growing since from the measurement of the sac, it seems that the baby is already eating. I couldn't put into words what I was feeling, we were both overwhelmed with joy. Thanking everyone who prayed for me and my baby, for my family, everyone who remembered and included us in their prayers. We thank God for this wonderful gift and we would do our best to keep this baby safe and help do good.

God is Good :)